Jogging and Taichi at Cyberpark :)

Me,Adibah and Adyla went to Cyberpark for jog. It was awesome..Yeah,it was great,no word i can describe about my feeling :) Although at first i felt a little bit refused because i was sleepy since i didn't sleep the whole night before. i was lay down and received a SMS from Adyla asked to prepare. Without long thinking and just ignore about my refuse feels, i get up and get myself ready with jog clothes. We arrived there around 8AM and did some warm-up together and we started to jogging. By the way..While jogging we saw a chinese group doing Taichi. And we talking each other "why not we join that group and do the taichi together them?" Since it's open and free :D and we were stopped jogging and directly joined them and we did the Taichi together :) this was my first time join and do it :) i have never do the taichi before..and yeah,i felt great after did it :P and one of them (chinese guy) told us,"if u guys want to join it,come here every saturday at 7.30AM" We just nod our head :D lol~ And after finished all,we had a breakfast together at FCM cafe :)and what i can say,i had a great day today with them :)

Resigned :(

Tonight is AGM for IU club and i feel reluctant to attend it. Since i resigned last night from Tanzim KKR..Yeah,i decided to would not hold any position or active in any club for the whole this semester untill i start my studies back. I don't think i could give them commitment.

Rehearsal AGM IU..

Tonight i got rehearsal AGM IU,after magrib prayer. sumpah aku takde mood n malas nak g.. Yeah,Tanzim KKR. tapi aku tak jalankan pon tanggungjawab aku sebagai tanzim. Mood aku langsung takde. Memang aku tak layak kot pegang jawatan,pegang jawatan tapi tak jalankan tugas..Yeah,aku akan bagi jawatan ni kat orang laen..what the hell is wrong with me. Sebab masalah belajar,abes mood aku rosak.


*Since i have nothing to do..so,i do update my blog everyday. LoL~

Vacation.

I just woke up and directly thinking,Hmm..since last nite i feel like want to go somewhere which is i could calm my feeling,i could cure it. i could escape my mind of thinking this problem. yeah..i decided want to go to Singapore :) since i have never been there. Tomorrow i might get the cash from my dad,and i will think about it..if i go,i'm gonna go ALONE. Full Stop.

Sickness and Love

Starting this semester..i have got nothing to do since Media Mathematic 1 they did not offered :(. Bored,sad,dissapointed,unsatisfied all blend together. Yeah..fuck my life :( Anyway,thank God..both of my parents can accept it after more than two weeks i kept it myself and thinking about how i gonna tell them till i got sick because of it. Yeah..and during that,my mood swing untill now.Yeah..Easy to get mad,sensitive,serious..and i blamed myself all the time.i keep asking..why am i super slow in studies? i hate it.. every subjects,assignments i did my best. i sacrificed my sleeping time,my social life just because want to focus on studies and assignments but seemed it was not worth.. i still got bad result. i was sick with my life..Yeah!i GAVE UP!
At the same time, On 17 of June 2010 at night,frankly i said to someone that "i love u" let i name him here as "M". Yeah..thru YM,i had feeling on him,i like him and yes i do love him..so,why must i deny it? and we declared as a couple starting that date. Thanks for loving me.i love u with full of my heart,u are everything for me.and i feel great when u r beside me and i like the way u showed ur love to me. i appreciate it. Unfortunatedly,im having problem now..which is my studies problem and because of it i being sensitive and passive. i know u offended a lot by me. i tried to treat u well when we went out together but i still can't avoid thinking of my problem and somewhat it was bother me. And today,the worse day,my mind was occupied since i woke up..i felt tired,no mood,hungry but no appetite to eat. and i spent the whole day just with pensive. Untill we chatting (YM),n i felt happy and got mood when talking to u.But..when u said about "go out and have fun" i felt really happy coz i was about to say.."okay we go together" but.. u cut it with "not me,dont worry" u made me felt down n sad. u spoiled my mood n yeah..i'm offended. It was not your fault because u know nothing about my problem..i want to tell u..but i don't know how to start and i don't have courage at all :( same feels i had when i want to tell to both of my parents,it's take a time. But whatever it is,i do love u :)i wish u could read this :P

My sad life :(

This new semester,i suppose to be in Beta year (Degree)majoring in Digital Media. But,hmm..like usual there is a always "BUT" because of my stupid i can't proceed to degree just because i didn't pass in Media Mathematic 1,silly me. Not stupid actually, i did my best to answered it and i got C- for it. Careless and not alert with MMU announcement (Buletin Board) now..nah! i'm regretting,dissapointed n think too much about it untill i was sick and don't have appetite to eat at all. And some of my friends say "Ibtisam..u looks pale,why?" and i answered them with a smiled.yeah..lately i couldn't sleep at night,stay up late untill subuh prayer. I'm okay if couldn't sleep because i used to be when i got a lot of assignments.. what made me misery is i lost appetite to eat as well and i do thinking all the time i can say in whatever i do and wherever i go. Just because i didn't drop supplementary paper,now nah..:( Yeah..it was my fault.However,MMU should considered it when i did a appeal letter. i still new in MMU,still blur because Math 1 was a subject in semester 1 (Alpha). i didnt know about supplementary paper..i was not familiar with the regulations of the exams at that time,i just about 4 or 5 months here. I thought C-* i was passed because at my result the wrote 'pass' and i didn't even care about it after that untill i moved to semester 2 and when i printed my exam slip i noticed there was a Math 1 in my subjects list and i started to panic and asked the lecturer about it and she said "Why didn't u drop it?,you got C-* which means u can drop it in case you don't want to take the supplementary paper,besides supp paper for those who got an D and E". Ah! stop mumbling ibtisam..what past is past..accept it and learn from it :(